Radio Silence

Since my last post:

• Audit at work – stress and madness ensue
  
• Vacation – lovely blur because
  
• FIL fell while we were gone sustaining grave injury
  
• IT conversion at work – stress and madness ensue
  
• FIL not progressing, bring in hospice
  
• Struggle to continue on with major fundraising event
  
• Funeral
  
• Put on huge fundraising event
  
• Spend time with Precious Oldest, home for spring break
  
• Spend time with Precious Youngest, home for spring break
  
• Shake fists at the heavens that their spring breaks were different weeks
  
• Go to the doctor and find out stress has caused weight loss. Go figure
  
• Send out resume and get called for interview
  
• Then….Nothing
  
• Start lettuce and carrots, prune and feed roses, beef up perennials
  
• Begin kitchen facelift
  
• Find out that lack of running water/stove/refrigerator render me useless
  
• Realize I would have made a shitty pioneer
  
• Girls home for Easter
  
• Have 70th birthday party for my mother
  
• Get called f or a second interview
  
• Then…Nothing
  
• Get a call from Precious Oldest – SHE HAS A JOB!
  
• Praise sweet baby jesus that kitchen face lift is done save for painting the walls
  
• Realize day after day after day of dreary weather has stopped me from doing any further gardening. Will likely see first tomato around fucking Labor Day
  
• Start researching possibilities for new kitchen table and chairs
  
• The Saint informs me budget is blown
  
• I keep looking for furniture anyway

Oh people I could weep. It has been a ragged few months. I look at this pathetic list and notice a total lack of nuance yet my life is filled day to day with grace notes I can’t put into words. I don’t want to abandon this space. We shall see.